Who ever said that it was going to be easy to be a Wife...of a Service Member?
Obviously that person is NOT a Spouse! It is not the easiest job....but most of us love it! Yes, there are good things about this "job"....medical insurance, most have a nice house, etc. The pay....well, thats a different story! I don't think that the pay is enough for what our "Guys" do. (Yes, I know that there are Females in the Military, I was one, but I am now speaking as a Marine Wife)
This job is definitely stressful. When will he be home, will he be home in time to eat dinner with the family, will he work all weekend or get to have time with his kids, when is the next TAD/Deployment.....these are all questions that we have on a day to day basis! SO many nights Bill comes home to dinner in the microwave or fridge to heat up. I feel horrible when he can't eat with us as a family, but Id rather not eat dinner at 7-8pm. Bill tries to be as involved as he can be after he gets home from work. I know that he works hard during the day and that he is tired by the time he gets home....but he still has us to spend time with. The Kids LOVE spending time with Daddy. That is the highlight of their day.....and mine (for once they will want to be with him and not me and I get a few minutes to myself!)
With time getting closer to this deployment, I have realized that I am NOT ready for him to leave!! It is going to be a hard time for all of us, and Im not ready for it! How do you mentally tell yourself that you will be without your Husband for that long of a time? How do I not feel guilty for having all of this time with the Kids and him not be with us? He will be who knows where busting his ass and we will be back here having a fun time doing whatever we want to do. Its not fair....but, we chose this life.
I get very emotional thinking about my Husband being gone for a long period of time. I think of how unfair it is to the Kids to not have him around on a daily basis. How do you explain to 2 young kids that Daddy won't be around for a LONG time? Bill and I are doing everything that we can possibly think of doing to prepare them, and us, for this. Last deployment was a little easier. Kadynce was young enough so she didn't know what was going on and Bradyn was born while he was gone (a very sucky thing!!) but it was easier since I didn't have to explain to them everyday why Daddy wasn't there. This time they are old enough to know that he won't be here. We have started making calendars so they can keep track of how long Daddy is gone. We plan to get a World Map so they can "track" him. We also plan to do fun things like send an Elf on the Shelf to him so the Elf can make sure that Daddy is being good for Christmas. Kadynce is already looking forward to making Bills Homecoming sign. She sees the neighborhood ones hanging on garages and gets excited that her Daddy will have one too.
Having the Kids involved and understand what is going on definitely does help sometimes. I love being able to talk to them about it and help them get through it. Kadynce knows that it is okay to be sad and cry when Daddy is gone. Bradyn gets sad at night because he wants cuddles from Bill but he knows that its okay to get sad too. We try to all comfort each other when we get sad. The Kids know that I too get sad and need to cry.
Somedays, I do hate this job. But most of the time.....I wouldn't have it any other way! We have made this life for us and our family and we are making the best from it!
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